when?

When will I be able to accept it? When will I  be able to trust good things that come into my life? When will I conquer my fear of loving completely? When will I be able to let people in? When will I be able to trust the love given to me?...

Here's One For You Guys...

Lately I have been having terrrible nightmares... I wake up feeling terrified, unsafe, and clueless as to what it can possibly mean. I cannot get over this terrified feeling its a bit unsettling. It seemed so real. I could feel it all. So, here's one...

Best thing

The best thing I've ever had may not physically be right in front of me, next to me, or even here to hold me. I feel like I have to keep saying it to myself that this is really happening and that this is real. I was always so afraid to fall in love...

The bright side

Two hours ago, I was having a hard time dealing with a personal problem. I may share the experience one of these days but right now I want to tell everyone something positive about me because I am not all sadness. I found the love of my life about a...

Okay.

Everyday I try to remind myself everything will be okay. That I will be okay. I have so many scars..some have faded and some have stayed. I dont know if this one will go away..I have just realized that this part of my life, this hurt, affects me more...

Tired...

Tired of trying to make everyone happy. Tired of putting my energy into things and people that I know are not going to be there for me. I just want to know what it's like to love, and be loved in return. It hurts right now...my heart. It saddens me to...

The Beginning

This is my beginning. I'm not sure what in here for exactly, but I thought maybe if I could just have my thoughts all in one place I can live in a world of my own. A world where no one can stop me and fears won't haunt me.